Thoughts

I don’t think I’ve ever been this nervous to speak on a topic since I ran for Treasurer in high school! (I did my thing by the way, and won! Yayyy me!) It feels like ever since I decided to test the waters with my #BloggingExperiment I can’t seem to think of much to say. Lol. That’s funny to me because I always have something to say 😁.. I think it’s the thought of a wide variety of “strangers” reading my writing, makes me a little embarrassed 😣 But then again I’m doing something that I love, so why not make the best of it. Right? Of course! Can’t live life in the dark forever, and success doesn’t come to those who sit in fear.

I have a lot to say and I know somebody may need to hear it, or has experienced it, or is experiencing it. Uplifting, and motivating people is something that gives me purpose. If I can’t help someone (even when I can’t help my damn self 💙) I honestly feel “not needed” and “useless”. I think I have so much to offer, but as times change so does how you’re judged in this society.

Not everyone truly wants to see the next person doing better than they are, so it makes it kind of hard when you reach out for a little moral support and reassurrance. You’d think that family, and friends would be your biggest supporters, but really they’re your worst critics. Sad but true! Now don’t get me wrong, it can be a good thing… hell a great thing but sometimes it just doesn’t mix.

I’ve learned over the years that you have to be your own supporter, your own motivater, and even your own cheerleader in order to obtain the courage to put your best foot forward. I know its exhausting, and sometimes heartbreaking not to have the people you thought would be rooting for you– doing just that, but it’s okay! Do not limit yourself because of it.

Do not put a stop to your goals, and life’s progression due to other people’s lack of selflessness and support!(Thank you Tia for your words😙) Life goes on; time waits for no one, so make it count!

If I knew what I know 10-15 years ago, oh man, I’d truly be a BOSS! I’m human, I’ve fucked up, and I wake up every morning (blessed) with a clean slate to forgive yesterday, and live for a new today! I can’t undo what I’ve done in my past, but I will move forward in hopes for a brighter future.

🌻Sincerely Boníta

“You are only confined by the walls you build yourself”-unknown