Day 1: Current Relationship Status

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Day 1: Current Relationship Status
Man oh man! Straight to the point I see. Well, currently I am single.

I have been single since 2013. Shit! Lol. That’s a long damn time right!? Yes indeed. Honestly, it’s really not all that bad, but of course it has it’s days. I’m okay with being single, until what I need shows up outta nowhere 👀😊. It took me a nice long while to acknowledge and understand, that I was going to be just fine. I had to mature, and grow up a whole lot. I had to get passed that needing a man phase of life.

I had to come to terms with my heartbreak and accept certain things for what they were. I told myself over and over again that I would not let another man break my heart; I meant that from my soul. Heartbreak is not fun, but I’m sure we have all experienced it a time or three in our life. Sad but true. Whether you’re a woman or a man a pain like that sucks, and it really does hurt!

My last relationship taught me so much about myself, and admitting I was truly a FOOL IN LOVE was the easy part. Putting my heart back together was the hard part. I questioned my worth, I questioned my hearts desire, I questioned my womanhood, and I questioned my love for other human beings. I had quite a few self-love, and self-worth pep talks with myself on numerous occasions. Until I finally realized I wasn’t the one wrong, there was nothing wrong with me. He just wasn’t right for me! I put in all this time, and energy into someone who was not deserving of what I had to offer!

Does it get lonely ? Yes it does.

Am I okay with being alone ? Yes I am content and comfortable with being alone.

“Just because I am ALONE does not mean I am LONELY.”

My healing process took me down dark roads, and being as strong as I am I was able to pull myself together! I was able to find ME, I was able to learn how to LOVE ME all over again, and it feels amazing. Each of my experiences were lessons, not punishments, and I’m so grateful for them all. Why? Because I understand. Looking back I have a better understanding as to why certain things happened, and how to make sure they will not happen again.

Now…. I am dating (2019), and I am open to a relationship, but I still haven’t came across that spark , that fire and desire type connection 🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️ …. In due time … I am in no rush.

“When you love someone love hard , but make sure you’re receiving the same kinda love in return! Love is NOT a one way street.”

🌻 Sincerely Boníta